See you Thursday...

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Today is hard; yesterday was hard... life, in general is hard now, baby. I miss you so much. Today I was wandering around looking for your phone. The battery had died and I got stuck listening to your Voicemail Message. And I asked for a sign.

The irony as you know is the sign I used to have on the door until it got faded and worn and I took it down to redo it. Basically, go away. We don't need anything and we already know Jesus.... So, twice now when I've asked specifically for a sign, He's sent the angel Connie. Connie is beautiful inside and out. I'm sure she feared for her life the first time she came by.

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I asked for a sign. And He sent you.

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